I’m sure a lot of you guys are like this. When things are going on in your personal life you aren’t the best at pretending like everything is fine. That’s the main reason why my blog and Youtube channel have suffered since the end of last year. I put all of my energy into my wedding blog I run because it was easier being an editor than a creator and putting on a smile for the camera.
When I turned 8 my parents divorced. Thats normal these days, your parents divorcing when you’re young. They both got remarried and life moved forward. It’s different when it happens when you’re 24. At this age you know everything. Every little detail, every issue, every hateful remark, everything. For me, it was easier to go through this when I was 8 because I was young and didn’t know exactly what was going on.
This was the third time I’ve had to work through a parental divorce, but this one was worse because it wasn’t expected. And this one destroyed relationships, like completely destroyed them, and brought out the absolute worse in someone I was close to. This person, who isn’t my immediate family but I’ve known for 15+ years spiraled down, became a liar, and a horribly toxic person. One of the most toxic people I’ve ever known. Because of this a lot of financial and personal responsibility was pushed on my sisters and I that we weren’t ready for.
Financial hardships, anxiety, toxic people, heartbreak. Personally, its hard for me to deal with all of that at once.
I’ve never coped well with tons of issues being thrown at me at once, so that’s why my blog and channel took a back seat. Every time I tried to get going again something would pop up, stress me out, and set me back. So the energy I did have went to Honeysuckle Brides and I found a joy in blogging again, built a good schedule, and started brainstorming new things to add to that blog.Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. Jim Rohn Click To Tweet
Things still aren’t normal, but they’re getting there. I’ve learned to focus on people that really matter, do things that make me and my husband happy, and put myself first. Worrying about people who don’t care about themselves or others just wasn’t worth my energy anymore. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped, so its best just to cut them out as much as possible.
I’m living for the day when I finally feel like my head is above water and I have a handle on everything. Hopefully that will happen soon. For now I’m doing much better and I’m learning how to be happy even on bad days. All you can do is take care of yourself, love the people that truly love you, and pray for the people who are troubled.
I hope you guys have a great rest of the week! Thanks for stopping by! If you wanna hear more check out the video below!